(x = space)
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Cancerous
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We’ve been five
Soon we will be four
That is the prognosis
Palliation
Hospice
These are discussed
And sought
For him
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Out of order
Since he’s not the oldest
In mere math of life
It could have been me
I’m the one with the machine
To keep me going
But I guess
(today’s not over)
It’s not me
(for now)
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The math doesn’t matter
Not important
Math matters elsewhere
In the dosage
Of his medication
In the number of his place
In the hospital
His apartment number
To which they say
He will not be returning
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It’s not me
It’s him
He is important now
But I have to say
It’s been a problem all along,
Frankly, with me
I don’t know how to lose
A brother
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And has he ever learned
To live with this
I’d say so
A mystery he did resolve
Through work
Through home
Maybe through old movies
He knows so well
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And one day
All shall be all
God bless everyone
Who tries
Who’s trying now
One by one
Who practices with grace,
Each fitness for heaven
That shall be judged
By perfect love intending
Hoping that
Full health to be restored
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God bless everyone
God bless each one
God bless Rick
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C L Couch
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Photo by National Cancer Institute on Unsplash
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October 30, 2022 at 5:12 pm
Hey Christopher. It seems too weird to ‘like’ this. So will just comment and let you know I hold you and your brother and family in my prays. This is, as always, so beautifully written. Such a gift. Thank you.
October 30, 2022 at 5:15 pm
I’ll pray for you both. My brother’s name is Rick.
October 30, 2022 at 5:16 pm
“ Gold Bless Rick “. My mother was the oldest of six siblings, and the last to die. She always wondered why.
October 30, 2022 at 9:11 pm
I liked this, but I didn’t. I am so sorry for the pain you are experiencing.