I use C L Couch when writing formally because it is a version of my name that's genderless. And, frankly, easier for handwriting--I have a severe writer's cramp. In conversation, I go by Christopher, having been named for the boy who had the poly bear and finally being (achieving) fine with that.
I use small Xes all the time because WordPress won't let me cut and paste the text from my program page to this one. (Grrrrrr.)
I am a career educator, semi-retired due to disability. I live in Mechanicsburg, Pennsylvania (USA).
The main photographs at this site (of the road, of me) were crafted by photographer and my friend Debra Danielson. A variety of her work is available for appreciation at
Thank you, lookers, hearers.--Christopher
July 29, 2018 at 3:09 am
That last line really stuck with me “ villains / inside tethered minds.” Perhaps, it’s like Batman, at least in the Dark Knight series, a real hero is what he needs to be for those he protects. So, often a hero becomes a villain for the good of all. Or, in the case of other hero’s/villains a hero chooses to become a villain. Again, in the Dark Knight series, Harvey Dent becomes Two Face, he chooses this when Rachel dies, when Batman does not save her first, even though both Batman & Harvey Dent loved her. He had to make a tough choice so he saved Harvey Dent who becomes the villain.
Also your lines in “reasoned chaos / we have the universe of possibilities,” gives one great though. First, the oxymoron of “reasoned chaos,” b/c true chaos is not logical or does not conform to reason. But also, that despite chaos, logical or not, we all have choices, many many “a universe of possibilities” as you say and we don’t know how these choices will ultimately effect us or others, b/c the possibility of “‘cause and effect’ are endless. And, your right in this reality, both good things and terrible things occur due to choices, and also I think the brokeness of a world that we, ultimately, cannot control — although we fight fiercely for control in life.
Also, Openeheimers mention in all of this is fascinating. B/c having all these choices, although we don’t always have control in life, can cause good and bad consequences. It made me think of those “nightmares” all people live through, where we blame God, when someone dies, or is dying painfully, or when someone very young passed away from carelessness or someone who wasn’t watching or was high. People blame God, but ultimately forget people have freewill — all people have freewill, b/c when he created us, he created us perfect with freewill in His image. But, after Eden and sin, now even reason has become “chaos” as decisions we never saw coming from others, hurts us, or those we love deeply and care about. Although decisions should be reasonable they aren’t always.
Ultimately, it is this chaos of having free will corrupted, and not knowing the cause and effects that causes death, whether we liken it or not. I think Opheinheimer says something like, “Now I have become death, the destroyer of worlds.” I recall this from Indiania Jones 4. But, in the creation of atomic bombs and nuclear bombs, rulers and elected officials have become like death as Oppenheimer called himself in creating such a weapon. Mass death. But the thing that’s terrible is that, we have caused death, not only when man fell, but by are choices, what we have accepted, and denied, what we have said nothing to stop. We often metamorphosis death as a grim reaper, and there is an actual experience of death, but in the end, humanity causees death, b/c we like God had the freewill to choose, and chose wrong, we choose chaos or the strong possibility of “nightmares,” not “dreams,” daily. We made our deaths, essentially. We still create death even when we die of old age, as death was caused, and is what we have metaphorically become in Eden, and throughout history.
This is a fascinating, creative, and a packed piece Christopher. I admire your brevity. I could not do that, as you see. Excellent.
July 29, 2018 at 3:10 am
*we chose wrong (not ‘and’)